eulogy for my beloved

eulogy for my beloved

what am i without you? 
i sit still in the darkness of day 
a mere shadow of my past self, 
crumpled in blurred dreams when i pray 
for better times and for old times, 
for times i didn't know were better, 
when i had you and didn't love you - 
my past self, i wouldn't let her 
hurt you again. 

what am i without you? 
an exotic flower without a stem - 
pretty but purposeless enough; 
a silk garment without a hem. 
Hold me up for i fail to stand 
without you, i'm inadequate 
in ways that i used to feel whole; 
i can't bear the darkness i sit 
in anymore. 

what am i without you?
everything i don't want to be right now. 

aishy
15 feb 26


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